Normaly i'd put soemthing like this in SG but i want some serious answers.

So I need help figuring out of i'm depressed. Yeah.

For the last few months i haven't really felt sad but rather total apathy. Nothing really bothers me. It's sorta that i just don't care about anything. Sort of like life is a game, and it's gotten boring.

But that isn't what has me.. concerned i guess. It's the constant daydreams of shoot myself in the head to end it. Not becuase i hate life. Life is pretty good for me. It's sorta like i'm bored, but not bored. It's weird. I think about suicide the same way i think about choosing what I should have for breakfast. Evyerday it's the same thing. I wake up and ponder "Hum should i shoot myself?". And i always decide not to because of the hassle of finding a gun and the fact that people would think i was some stupid emo.

So yeah. What the hell is wrong with me. I mentioned this to a friend and she thought i might be a type of sociopath, lack of emotions. So yeah. Help.

Go to a doctor, psychologist, or psychiatrist and find out if you have something. Usually those thoughts aren't that normal, so you might need some help. Worst case scenario, you'll get some happy drugs.

Yeah that's depression man, and I know it well.

Think of it as a challenge. Life is boring you, you have to challenge yourself to find something good in it.

A good game, a good book, something simple like that. Something that will take up your mind. Something clear-cut.

But yeah, you're right.

Since this is S&A, Ill get this topic, a bit on topic . Anyway, one question. DO you have a girlfriend? If you dont get one. That sounds pretty serious if you think you want to commit suicide, and your too lazy to do it...Seriously though, get a girlfriend if your that bored. Im not trying to be offensive or anything but, yeah, having a girl will keep you occupied!