Shit , thats how i feel

This isn't another ooh i am so lonely !! i have never had a girl threads . Well in a sense it isnt .

But im all moody again and i cant figure out why. I mean in the past three months i have emmigrated lost my best mate and my girl just before . Icant find anything to do at uni i want to get qualified but at what ? , ... well who knows ?

I thought it was because i hadnt fucked in a while (juvenille i know) so i slept with two prostitutes (no not at the same time) and that made me feel so dirty . Then i found my drugs again took E for the first time but the comedown was so harsh i said not again . Smoked loads of weed and had a really bad trip on lsd. And now i work then go home and get drunk on my own like every night.

Dont think i got a leg to stand on feel pretty low and want to have a relationship .

Is it wrong to want a relationship with the state i am in ?

EDIT : typo



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I'd say it is wrong to strive for a relationship if you're feeling mentally unbalanced. Sounds boring and the opposite of what you need, but some structure in your life I'm sure would go a long way. If you can't find a course you want to do, fine. Setle your mind on something else, get a job, work on a project, etc. You should look at the underlying cause before you start trying to fix it.

i suppose man , i been looking for a cause for this for a long time and want to find it so badly . but sometimes i think ... what if i never find what is wrong with me ? . i could piss my life away working at subway

Stay positive dude, keep meeting people who inspire you and you want to be around...

Sooner or later you will meet women you really are attracted to, and it might inspire you to motivate yourself and re-evaluate your life.

Not saying you should neccesserily wait until then. Do you really want to be drinking at home every evening? You mentioned a bad acid trip, well, maybe hang out with a good friend and take a hit or two each, and go wandering in an area of natural beauty.

Find some other hobbies as well man, be it making music, reading, cycling whatever.

Self-evaluation can make you feel bad at times, but overall it's probably the most mentally healthy thing you can do, so i wouldn't stop considering your situation

I dont know wtf i wanna do in school either, this is my second year and I'm not really interested in what I'm doing, thank god the school is paying my tuition or I'd be so pissed I threw 10,000 down the drain on tuition. It still blows though because thats 2 years gone, not wasted because I am learning, although pretty useless stuff but gone.

I never banged any dirty goes or got into drugs though, tough shit man.

Cheers guys i have decided i am going to go into nursing at Uni ,and am starting to re-write the book i have been attempting for years. i mean my past looks really seedy but it doesnt make me who i am .The more you experience the stronger you get , i am hoping but the sadness is easing



Im sorry to bring you all down i just get these sudden bouts of sadness sometimes.

Wow, I wouldn't even have the balls to try nursing, good luck. You'll have lots of females around anyways, theres only like 1 guy in nursing at my school, the rest are chicks.

you're cool man. apathy rocks.

but really, grow up, we all have emotions.

If emotions were just for women, men wouldnt become lonely, would they?

Wait, what about gay guys?