My life isn't going anywhere. I'm too young to work, but out of school. I have, and will have, no qualifications by 16. In social situations I never talk to anyone. I feel totally worthless and pathetic. Even on the internet I'm constantly made a fool of and flamed just for voicing suggestions or opinions.

I've never been in a single relationship or even kissed a girl. I'm not confident, relaxed or social enough for that. I've tried pulling myself out this. Joining sports, the gym, youth groups, none of it works. I tried doing my exams, that didn't work either. I'm a failure with no talents or worth.

I feel life is completely null and void anyway, there is no God, so what meaning is there to my life. The more I think about this and what it implies the more depressed I get. I've been on several antidepressants, none of them worked, so now I am completely clean of any drugs. I have a counsellor, have had many in the past, none of them have been able to help.

I've tried open body language. I've tried being funny, to the best of my ability. I've tried acting confident until I can be confident. I've tried all the hobbies and groups in my area. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't know why I screw up. Even exercising and constantly putting myself out there doesn't fix my depression and misery. I don't have one friend, online or off.

At this point I am honestly considering a mass Murder/Suicide.

Why the fuck am I posting this.

[This message has been edited by A verbis ad verbera (edited 10-05-2006).]

did you

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just remember that in your life people do care, even though they dont show it, they do,

life gets better just wait it out. i went throguh a rough period mydrlf but times gett better and life turns from darknees to light

quote:Originally posted by A verbis ad verbera:



Why the fuck am I posting this.

I was wondering the same thing.

Kill yourself.

quote:Originally posted by shrek45:

just remember that in your life people do care, even though they dont show it, they do,

life gets better just wait it out. i went throguh a rough period mydrlf but times gett better and life turns from darknees to light

Its not like that. Its been this way ever since I had to start talking to people other than my parents. Then came the realization that life wasn't happy or an easy breeze for me. Then came the realization i'd die and all my achievements would be forgotten. Then the realization my parents, and everyone else I know would die. And then the realization i'm a disgusting piece of shit who, no matter how hard he tries, can't get a single friend.

quote:Originally posted by A verbis ad verbera:

I am completely clean of any drugs.

There's your problem.

Try MDMA. It usually allows you to be ignorant to the evils and bad in the world, even if only momentarily. MDMA can be quite insightful, especially the first time. Then, after this, if you still haven't found 'the answer' (I did when I took it my first tiem), you'll probably just off your self on a comedown.

P.S. You're a faggot for considering mass murder. We have good lives. We're not absolute failures like your self. Don't fuck up our lives because YOU'RE a fuck up.

You don't need a god to have meaning in life, you dipshit. You're pretty fucked up though, so go see a doctor or something.

Also keep in mind that you're fucking 16. At least wait until you're 25 until you seriously start to consider suicide; if your life is still shitty like it is now then you might have grounds for concern. Until then get the help you need and stop beating yourself up.

So you're how old, 14-15, and out of school? How did you manage that? Anyway, as you may of heard people view me as kind of a lsoer. And while I realize that I do a lot of loser stuff, I never let it get me down. If anything I'm over confidant, and I gotta tell you it's worked really well fro me so far. I've not kissed a girl(and Im older than you) but I walk tall like a pimp just the same. If you can't be comfortable being yourself, then well, there's your problem. Your life isn't really supposed to go anywhere yet, wait til you're 16 and yuo can drive nothing is more freeing than driving.

Suicide for any reason is a permanant solution for a temporary problem. If you kill yourself now, you may be missing out on that dream girl of yours who was gonna ask you out the next day. You never know. If there is no god, would you really ratehr not exist as opposed to being in charge of your own life? DOn't forget that, you're in charge of your life, and it IS up to you to make it one worth living. Hell based off jsut this one post, you seem like a pretty cool, albeit depressed, guy.

there there its gunna be ok in the long run and you *starts taking off clothes* need to find some small goals *compleatly naked* and work on achieveing them *makes drink for you*. rome wasnt build in a day *while your not looking i slip a roofie in your drink* and get a job that forces you to talk to people * watches as you drink* like a job in retail and just work * watches you fall asleep* on connecting with people.

*walks over to your passed out body*

*fades to black*

quote:Originally posted by A verbis ad verbera:

At this point I am honestly considering a mass Murder/Suicide.

Just kill your self now. It'll make your parents happy. Are you that selfish that you wont allow your parents some momentary happiness?

quote:Originally posted by arquin:

Just kill your self now. It'll make your parents happy. Are you that selfish that you wont allow your parents some momentary happiness?

lol

Wait until you're 21, at least. If you still feel like shite about your life, then go for it. But think about it... what's six or seven more years going to hurt if you're going to end your life anyway? Once your dead... you're dead. You can never enjoy anything you do now again.

Learn to appreciate the smallest things, it can really help you feel better. Take a walk and look at all the leaves changing, or look at stars all night. Watch a sprinkler if somebody near you is watering their lawn, eat rice crispies just to hear them snap, crackle, and pop, eat a cinnabon slowly, and spend the time wondering how they get so much warm, sugary goodness into that little roll. Just enjoy things.

Edit: Oh, and about the murder/suicide idea... if you want to be a whiney little cunt and not stick around long enough for things to get better, don't be that fucking selfish about it. Just because you see no reason to live doesn't mean others aren't so blind.

[This message has been edited by firekitty751 (edited 10-05-2006).]

i have very little time so i'm making this brief:

1) the beliefs you hold of yourself are preventing you from enjoying life; they are all a big illusion and have no meaning.

2) suicide is not an option because you will probably fail at it and make your life worse.

quote:Originally posted by A verbis ad verbera:

Then came the realization i'd die and all my achievements would be forgotten.

Eventually everything is forgotten. Hell, can you even name the man who invented the VHS? One of the most used pieces of technology and I can't even tell you who cam up with it.

quote:Originally posted by lauren7249:

2) suicide is not an option because you will probably fail at it and make your life worse.

Eh, kind of depends how determined you are. If there's even a slither of doubt if what you're doing is the wrong thing, you'll fight. And damn can we fight when we need to.

My friend who killed her self just drove out to a secluded place, and swallowed 200 Epilim tablets.

Oxycotton + lots of booze. That should do it for you. Its a magic wonder drug for fixing lives. Bust be sure to take enough.

quote:Originally posted by XHippie HunterX:

Oxycotton + lots of booze. That should do it for you. Its a magic wonder drug for fixing lives. Bust be sure to take enough.

Large amounts of alcohol should be avoided. Drinking too much too quickly will just induce vomiting. Then you'll vomit up the OC's (or what ever else you swallowed).

Lots of opiates + a glass of 40% alcohol will do the trick. Then go ride a motorbike. Fuck wearing a helmet as well, helemts are for pussies.

Mate, I went through the same shit you are, and we're far from the only ones. Stop this pattern of self-loathing and self-pity, and just DO things that make YOU feel good.

And don't hit me with this bullshit 'I don't like anything, I never feel good!' crap either. You'll find your fun in the things you enjoyed growing up, and you will find new things too.

Basically, grow up and start being responsible.

Now, when I was in a deep depression, certain things helped me. Night walks. Getting out is god. Yes, god. Mantras. A sentence or phrase you repeat in your head, positive of course, not 'I am a loser'. You're not a fucking loser man, you're just human.

Be less theoretical, and more practical. You see, social interaction is much easier when you do it on auto-pilot, and your mind is actually on other things. That way, it doesn't even matter what people think of you, because you just don't care.

I dunno what else I can tell you, but if you commit suicide, it won't end it. The shit you're feeling now will be put onto your family, forever.

How would your parents feel about you killing yourself? If I've ever contemplated suicide that thought is quickly obliterated by thinking about what it would do to my family, especially my mother.

Life isn't easy or fair. It sounds like you have been trying to better yourself, but if you're only 14/15 then you've still got a long way to go.

So keep trying, and remember: "This too shall pass."

Thinking about that makes me feel a bit better when I feel like life is not worth living.

When I was younger went through alot of periods without a single friend. It's tough, but things'll get better if you give them a chance to.

So yeah, I'd give it more time, like firekitty said, wait until you're 21 and then reassess your situation.

Why would you try to kill yourself?

Think about it, if you fail, its another thing you suck at.

Try not to be a complete failure.

But really, try and work toward getting your GED or whatever, then become a Trucker, they pay for you to get get a CDL, seriously look into to trucking...NOW!!!

A foot in the ass always get people agoing and if you feel like you have nothing to live for and all that crap US NAVY SEALS HOOYAH!!!

I've never had to deal with any kind of suicide thoughts because I always keep a very positive outlook on life. I've had some pretty fucked up shit happen to me, and to people I know.

When you feel that things can't get any worse.. whats a better outlook on life than to think: well, things can only get better. and then MAKE IT FUCKING HAPPEN.

And on the mass murder note.. Just because you feel your life is a piece of shit doesn't mean you go to your fucking school and take as many as you can with you. If you do go down this road.. I hope you run out of ammo on your killing spree and have to deal with the consequences of your actions. and just remember.. just because a gun is loaded with a bullet doesn't mean that bullet isn't defective and wont fire.

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quote:Originally posted by jackketch:

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Wow, that was inconsiderate but cool.

I know this may sounds somewhat strange, but just become an ass hole, hate everyone and everything, just don't be emo about it.

I'm not going to give you sympathy.

Instead I'm going to hopefuly turn your life around.

You do not need to be sad.

You are not a slave to your emotions.

You can simply choose how to feel.

The only way you will succeed is by trying.

The only way to learn is to fail.

Every moment is a new moment and a new chance to be happy..

UNLESS you're dead.

And there's plenty of time for dying, but you'd be a fool not to aim for happiness and peace of mind every moment you can.

Good luck.

quote:Originally posted by lauren7249:

2) suicide is not an option because you will probably fail at it and make your life worse.

Haha, I said something like that.

quote:Originally posted by Black Territory:

I know this may sounds somewhat strange, but just become an ass hole, hate everyone and everything, just don't be emo about it.

No don't do that. It fucks everything up. And before you say things can't get worse, trust me, They can. and you'll wish things were like they are now.

*sighs*

quote:Originally posted by jackketch:

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nice illustration...

but why is this here and in SG as well?

(the thread, not the noose)

Troll, don't kill yourself. It would be wasteful.

quote:Originally posted by phmeworp:

nice illustration...

but why is this here and in SG as well?

(the thread, not the noose)

Because i hadn't been over to 'Kiddiots Wonderland' (aka SG)yet today.

OP, don't double post.