What the fuck is wrong with me,these last few years have been so shit,but i try to change so many thing but they just keep geting better for a while and then get worse later,my confidence is extremely low,thats because i have pimples its disgusting,ive had them since since year 7 im serious to i have tried EVERYTHING to get rid of it believe me,and because of that i have become obssesive compulsive with the things around me, i have to make things neat and clean,because i feel like i cant be clean, i hate it so much , i dont have a job a car or any of the things a 17 year old is supposed to have.My step dad is an asshole i havent talked to him in like 2 weeks my mum is always stressed and overall the environment sucks in my house,despite all this ive had my share of long term gf's,and i have an awesome one atm,but im afraid that my behaviour in general will push her away,i have lots of trouble talking to people cause all they look at is my face and they think i dont notice,its very annoying,so ive become an anti social prick to everyone.Im not trolling i guess im bitching but ,is there anyway i can stop some of this bullshit with myself?

i sympathize. besides going to a dermatologist and getting some good face wash (something with benzoyl peroxide and one with salicylic acid; also don't pick the skin) i'd suggest focusing on other things. such as your girlfriend, and things you're passionate about. it's never good to be too inwardly focused. it leads to confusion and depression.

First off, give apple cider vinegar a try on your face. I saw some one on here say something about it the other day and I've been trying it for two days and it works surprisingly well. http://frugalliving.about.com/cs/tips/a/blvinpers.htm

The disolving asprin in vinegar is amazing to reduce redness and swelling instantly.

About the rest.. positive self talk. It works, just tell yourself all those negative things are bullshit. Before you know it you won't even be saying them. Here's a quote by Muhammad Ali to illustrate what I'm talking about: "I figured that if I said it enough, I would convince the world that I really was the greatest."