Pulsera,

I love you more than I've ever loved anyone in my life

I screwed up and I always just stress you and I don't know why. I come up with all these excuses that the timing just never is right in my life and I can't take it anymore. I run you down. I wear you out. I know you can't stand it anymore. I depress you because I cannot do anything but put myself down.

You're sound asleep right now and I cannot do anything but stay awake, hoping that you'll wake up and call me and tell me that it's okay and tell me you still love me and that i dont need to worry anymore

I'm so scared. Last time when you almost broke up with me I was terrified, but now more than anything I know I would deserve it this time.

I need to just publicly apologize to you infront of totse. I always hated that you knew my username and that you were on totse, but I just want to give you a gesture.

Sometimes I'm on the phone with other people and I just wish they asked me about us, and I could say yes. Not because it would make me feel like I took some weight off of my shoulders but because I just want everyone to understand.

It's the evening and I still know I'm insane, I don't have to wait till morning to figure that out

Yours is the first face that I say, I think I was blind before I met you

I love you so much

I'm so sorry

I don't know if you'll actually read this, if it will get locked or deleted or just no one will care and it will fall right off the page, but this is sex and affection... I love you I have nothing but affection for you. You're the realist. I say I'll be with you forever, you say a long time. I will try to be real for once I promise.

I know I get all caught up when I'm angry about our sex life and I'm moody and just unpleasant... but I won't care anymore. I'll let you heal. I'll let you take your time.

I love you so much

I need you, please forgive me

threads like this make me sad... and reminds me of my relationship.

*sigh*

*does a line*

By rights i should delete this but....i'm a caring and gentle man whose heart flows with nothing but the milk of human kindness and love for his fellow man, so i'll leave it up for a bit so she can see it.

Ahhh young love...

quote:Originally posted by jackketch:

By rights i should delete this but....i'm a caring and gentle man whose heart flows with nothing but the milk of human kindness and love for his fellow man, so i'll leave it up for a bit so she can see it.

Ahhh young love...



thats nice of you. my ex made one of these for me when she fucked me over.

too bad I'm of the opinion words are piss in the wind without actions to back them up, hey?

quote:Originally posted by Garfunkel:

thats nice of you. my ex made one of these for me when she fucked me over.

too bad I'm of the opinion words are piss in the wind without actions to back them up, hey?

It's true, it's true.

*sighs at a more complex time, when he thought words could fix everything, when in fact inaction screwed everything up*

Thanks Jack,

Puls hasn't read this yet, but apparently this is a bad idea... or futile

What am I supposed to do then?

I don't know how to change. We're just so close sometimes I treat puls like my parents or sibling in regards to how i can just get mad or use them

Sometimes I think I used to give more of a fuck. I was on such good behavior and then all these things just started adding up that made me either get mad to the point where i didn't care, or just broke me down to the point that sometimes it's just easier to be an asshole.

I don't want to be an asshole anymore, but honestly I don't know how to not be. I want so much and I do so much and I think I'm just tired.

I am so tired, I've been up all night and now I have stupid ass classes.

Being needy like this is going to scare her off. If you just dropped her and forgot about her, then dated other girls she'd be back like a bullet. Delete the thread. Now. By the sounds of it, being needy and clingy is what's "stressed" her in the first place.

[This message has been edited by Alls Well That Ends Well (edited 09-12-2006).]

Ojise you might want to delete this thread an email her the message instead, for two reasons:

1) When more totse users read it, you're going to get flamed more than an overdone chargrilled steak.

2) She's probably going to think you're a douche for posting it on totse instead of communicating it to her directly. Posting it on totse WON'T score you any points unless she's a very strange girl.

You're so dramatic but i love you.

Don't worry baby everything will be ok.

quote:Originally posted by fullcircle:

...unless she's a very strange girl.

This made me smile.

Why don't you two make a suicide pact or somthing?

She doesn't believe in an afterlife, so why not just stay alive together?

Yeah I'm needy I guess...

Not the worst thing... i could be the total opposite of needy, which i think would take off more points

I've never been needy before actually she knows my history and honestly she should be scarily happy with herself because I dont have a very long attention span when it comes to liking to spend time with people... I guess that sounds like I'm obsessed....

Oh well

Love IS obsession, but self-control is god.

quote:Originally posted by pulsera:

You're so dramatic but i love you.

Don't worry baby everything will be ok.

now this made me smile. you're obviously a very very nice girl.

quote:Originally posted by Ojise:

i could be the total opposite of needy, which i think would take off more points

Bullshit, the total opposite of needy (which doesn't have anything to do with desire) is the best possible way a guy can be, only needy girls like needy guys.

quote:Originally posted by Garfunkel:

threads like this make me sad... and reminds me of my relationship.



Thanks for stealing my response, asshole!

Edit: i just read the rest of the thread, and it made my day just a little bit better.

[This message has been edited by Psionicist (edited 09-12-2006).]

quote:Originally posted by fullcircle:

Bullshit, the total opposite of needy (which doesn't have anything to do with desire) is the best possible way a guy can be, only needy girls like needy guys.

Then I'm a needy girl.

quote:Originally posted by pulsera:

You're so dramatic but i love you.

Don't worry baby everything will be ok.

Ohhhh.. young love.

you two are fucking cute. I hope everything goes well.

quote:Originally posted by pulsera:

You're so dramatic but i love you.

Don't worry baby everything will be ok.

*Sits on the couch*

Mmm, good movie. Where's the popcorn?

Heh, *Pat* Thats the way, must've made him happy to hear that.