 My summer romance...
Hello everybody. If you didn't know, I spent most of my summer in the Balkans. (For the geographically impaired, it's over here: http://tinyurl.com/rwfyg ). I had a blast considering beer is a dollar a litre, wine is about the same, and hard liquer is equally cheap for the amount of bang you get. That and cigarettes are about a dollar for an average pack, or 18 bucks for a carton of marlboro lights (what I smoke). Anyway, the whole thing was great. Hung out with my cousin and his friends, they're the equivilant of 3rd year college, give or take, and went to Croatia to swim in the adriatic for 10 days. We'd start drinking very early and party until around 8-9am. I can't actually remember, but I think I forgot to sleep.
It was a blast, I went to an international soccer game and stole a ball (got kicked out of the field, so I climbed a pine tree totally drunk, jumped off, and ran home before the ballboys got me). I loved being drunk there because not only was I free from common sense, but I dind't know anybody, so I basically said fuck it, and tried to be as social as possible. I was probably a big embarassment to everybody, but I don't give a shit. We were all really close too. His friends accepted me, and they were all very open. That's one thing I like about smokers (cigarettes, not a lot of weed), they seem to be more social to others.
Now we get to the romance
Anyway, I had one little fling, if you could even call it that, with this one chick. We just got drunk and made out I think, then I walked her home. Nothing too special, but whatever.
The highlight of the whole fucking vacation was this one girl, Jelena. Fucking stunner, a real fucking gem. (No pics yet, fuck off). But yeah, there's hot chicks everywhere. I mean, she was hot, a definate 10, but no fucking Angelina Jolie or whatever floats your boat. Still, she could play the guitar and sing like a fucking angel. One night around a campfire she sang for hours and nobody got bored. She was also fluent in God knows how many languages, basically, not a ditz. And loved kids too. Basically, a 10 in all fields, more or less (everyone's got a few faults).
We shared a wonderful night together, with the exception of what had to be the world's fucking biggest cockblock. I swear to God, this guy barged in on us while we were alone in the fucking tent (not fucking, unfortunately) and starts trying to strike up a conversation. Bitch. I managed to get her alone on a boat at one point to watch the sunrise, which ended up being not as beautiful as I'd hoped for, but who gives a shit. We had a nice enough time, and she talked a big about her ex, which pissed me off.
Anyway, I saw her the next day at her work and brought her a rose, and asked her out the next next night. She said yes. I met her the next next night and took her to the "hot spot" of the town if you will. A club roughly translated to "Freedom". As cheap as the liquer there was, I spent a shitload, but we had a lot of fun taking tequila shooters, Jaggermeister, Jack Daniels, and God know's how much beer. Drunk, I thought up the perfect way to finally kiss her. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but in sober retrospect, it was far too corny. But anyway, we made out a bit, then went somewhere private for a while. Talked, and made out some more, then I walked her home.
However, because of my idiotic schedule, I basically had to leave in 2 days, so there went the best girlfriend I ever had. I did see her the day thought, so I'll write some more about that :). I went to her work while her manager was gone. She was working at some library/house for kids/something. We made out and talked and listened to music and whatnot, just hung out basically. I met her again that night, what was to be our last, and we hung out with her friends a bit, but then she took me to this really neat, secluded meadow overlooking the entire city. We gazed at stars a bit, and talked about the future and whatnot, and made out some more. She gave me an excuse (which to this day, I'd call the worst case of bullshit ever) about being on her period and not being able to fuck me. I was fine with that, the fucking didn't matter to me that much, the excuse just pissed me off. We talked a bit more, I said something about love, totally unrelated to us, and she miunderstood it as me saying I love you or something, and I think she got a bit wierded out. I didn't give a shit in the end, just pissed me off because I didn't have a freudian slip, was just making a point about old people.
Anywho, I walked her home, said Goodbye forever basically, and realized I'd totally fucked myself over seeing her, and that I had to wait outside in the fucking cold with very little clothes for four hours in a country I barely knew and almost missed my trip. Thankfully it sort of worked out or something, and I'm here know.
I realize that by now she's probably fucked a thousand other guys and I'm nothing more than just a blip in her memory, but this girl really meant something to me. If you can fall in love in a week, I guess that's what happened to me. Not that I believe in love, fuck it. But it turns out if I join the US military, I could get stationed in a base there called "Eagle Base" and be near her. Not that I'd do it, just saying.
Conclusion, I swear
Anyway, that was about it for my summer. Pretty shitty by some standards, considering I didn't even get laid, but I think I grew a bit emotionally and mentally. I know now that it's not worth it ever getting involved with anyone, and that I'd much rather die a cynical old fuck than have my heart beat up, and then kicked in the groin for good measure. Actually, I don't know what the fuck my philosophy is yet, but for the time being I'm a callous prick. This girl has not only fucked with my heart, but also with my mind. I don't know what I want anymore, or how to go about getting it, but I've decided that I'll take up meditation again and seek out to understand where I stand right now, and what I want out of life before I do anything stupid. Now I'm getting too philosophical, why ruin a good thing? That was my summer, hope you enjoyed it.
That's about it. Hope you read through it all, and comment on whatever you wish. It's nice to see some of you again, and the rest, I wish you were dead. Just kidding, maimed will suffice.
And just to save you the trouble...
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2006-09-08, 01:09
