The Italian girl..Kelly..her!!

Such a bad breakup; oh dear god did she ever throw my heart for a loop..

But the times we had together...so much love, so much hot, passionate sex, that feeling she gave me that everything was alright in the world..that sparkle in her eyes; some ethereal combination of warmth, love, passion..with a wild spark..a spark only I could see in her; a spark her and I alone indulged in..physically and emotionally. The things she said to me, the conversations we had, that unspeakable, unearthly connection her and I had..oh yes, she was my soulmate..she was the love of my life..and I can't stop loving her..I hate her for playing with my heart, but I'll never fall out of love with her..

ooooh this is so awful, this feeling...it is one thing when you mutually decide to end a relationship; sure, the after-effects are never easy, but at least you wanted them too, and you can cope easier..but no..getting left is terrible...YOU are the one who suffers, not her; she's just made happy, and seeing her with another man, knowing that they play together, THE MENTAL PICTURES OF ALL THE THINGS THEY MUST DO, AND HOW VIVID AND ACCURATE THEY ARE, because you know her each and every sexual secret...ooooh the thoughts...the visions...the lost times..!!! I want to stick a knife into my heart and bleed it all out sometimes..let her and everyone else see it..let HER know how horrible a thing she did to me, let HER experience a life of unspeakable pain and guilt because of ME! Let her mind chide her with "..what if he WAS the one.." doubts, with PAINS, with regrets...!!

But no, no..that's the weak way out..that is so sickeningly puerile and weak that I hate myself for thinking of it...

But here I am..off work, nothing to do, no one to call...just HOURS and HOURS, stuck alone in my mind, with all THIS, these demons, these IMAGES, picturing HIM sliding her wet panties off and giving her oral..something I used to do, goddamnit..and her, enjoying it all, "oooh, ah....", OBLIVIOUS TO THE HELL I AM IN NOW!!!!!



>squeezes the sides of his head in an effort to keep his blood vessels from bursting<

Nothing..to...do...no...distraction...no..solace.. .no...rest!!

I'm in hell...this is hell..hell exists, and this is it...oh help me..no..don't help me..I need to help me...BUT HOW!!

....................

-Infrared

Infrared man, no offence, but how many chicks has it been in the past 2 weeks...or is she someone in the past you remet, and ya, a chick dumping you really does suck..i know, its happened to me a few weeks back...but i got over her, i wasnt as close to her as you said you were to your kelly...

Ah, I feel for you. Heartbreak is the worst fucking feeling ever, I think anyone would agree...But the best thing is that it always gets better eventually, however shitty it feels now. Hang in there.

x

Do you ever feel like you are in a pit that seems to get deeper and deeper and deeper as time passes?

Do you ever have moments when you can't picture her face for a second, and then realize those moments will become more and more frequent, but your feelings will still be there?

Do you experience memories that are so vivid that it seems like you are so close to actually being with her but for some reason you just can't quite turn back time?

Do you stop to realize how long it will be before you will masturbate or have sex without thinking of her?

Do you ever just start singing "I will survive"?

God, I hope not man. Good luck. Why did she dump you anyways?

quote:Originally posted by Easy Going:

Do you ever feel like you are in a pit that seems to get deeper and deeper and deeper as time passes?

Do you ever have moments when you can't picture her face for a second, and then realize those moments will become more and more frequent, but your feelings will still be there?

Do you experience memories that are so vivid that it seems like you are so close to actually being with her but for some reason you just can't quite turn back time?

Do you stop to realize how long it will be before you will masturbate or have sex without thinking of her?

Do you ever just start singing "I will survive"?

God, I hope not man. Good luck. Why did she dump you anyways?



Yes, to every one, Easy..well, not the "I Will Survive" thing, but everything else..One dumb song lyric does sometimes find it's way through my head, though: "Ah said I must be fine because my heart's still beating..". Well, mine is, but all it's doing is pushing blood through me. How come my medical and anatomical knowledge and my rationale tells me that it is just that; a blood-pushing organ and nothing more with no cognitive function, and that all my pain and hurt are in my brain alone...but how come it's my heart that hurts, along with my brain?

I don't even want to remember why she left me before; it makes too many words of hers scrape through my mind again.

****hug****

i know how you feel.

i hurt too.

it hurts so much...

*sigh*

*another hug*

you know what, heartbreak sucks. My girlfriend dumped me a week or so ago. It feels real bad. the worst is, that im still in hell, she is living the high life. But infared, wait a while man, things will get better. How old are you anyway? Well shit, get well soon, I hope I do to.

Suicide is always an option.

I've never really been dumped, per se, but when things go bad with a girl I usually convert whatever I'm feeling into pure resentment towards them. Try to think about everything they did that bothered you, or the little imperfections they had that you had to ignore while being with them.

People come and go, life is about you.

Sometimes the ones that come leave very deep marks on you. And sometimes, they're too deep for time and personal resolve to repair.

I'll be stuck with this the rest of my life.

quote:Originally posted by Infrared:

Sometimes the ones that come leave very deep marks on you. And sometimes, they're too deep for time and personal resolve to repair.

I'll be stuck with this the rest of my life.



Well then you probably have a promising future as a lugubrious emo musician.

Touche'. Fuck you, but touche'.

You mentioned suicide to let her know how bad you feel, but actual death isn't entirely neccesary. If you really want that kind of revenge bad enough, you could always fake your own death if it's really worth the effort; do something like leaving your clothes by a raging river, or something like that, and then moving far away, making her live with the thought that she drove you to suicide. If she doesn't care, then you could smash her car or something, leaving a note. Then move to avoid a lawsuit, or your own property being damaged. Either way, you would lose a car, most of your property, and have to move, but, hey, it's a good idea if you want the results enough, and you're good enough at hiding evidence to make it look convincing.

i did that one time a while ago.

i had my friend help me. we set up my suicide and everything went smoothly.. i cut myself up and took lots of pills and stuff.

i let the girl cry for an entire day, then the next time i talked to her i was all like "i'm alive, and still kicking!"

makes you feel appreciated

quote:Originally posted by Infrared:

The girl..Aila..her!!

Such a bad breakup; oh dear god did she ever throw my heart for a loop..

But the times we had together...so much love, so much hot, passionate sex, that feeling she gave me that everything was alright in the world..that sparkle in her eyes; some ethereal combination of warmth, love, passion..with a wild spark..a spark only I could see in her; a spark her and I alone indulged in..physically and emotionally. The things she said to me, the conversations we had, that unspeakable, unearthly connection her and I had..oh yes, she was my soulmate..she was the love of my life..and I can't stop loving her..I hate her for playing with my heart, but I'll never fall out of love with her..

ooooh this is so awful, this feeling...it is one thing when you mutually decide to end a relationship; sure, the after-effects are never easy, but at least you wanted them too, and you can cope easier..but no..getting left is terrible...YOU are the one who suffers, not her; she's just made happy, and seeing her with another man, knowing that they play together, THE MENTAL PICTURES OF ALL THE THINGS THEY MUST DO, AND HOW VIVID AND ACCURATE THEY ARE, because you know her each and every sexual secret...ooooh the thoughts...the visions...the lost times..!!! I want to stick a knife into my heart and bleed it all out sometimes..let her and everyone else see it..let HER know how horrible a thing she did to me, let HER experience a life of unspeakable pain and guilt because of ME! Let her mind chide her with "..what if he WAS the one.." doubts, with PAINS, with regrets...!!

But no, no..that's the weak way out..that is so sickeningly puerile and weak that I hate myself for thinking of it...

But here I am..off work, nothing to do, no one to call...just HOURS and HOURS, stuck alone in my mind, with all THIS, these demons, these IMAGES, picturing HIM sliding her wet panties off and giving her oral..something I used to do, goddamnit..and her, enjoying it all, "oooh, ah....", OBLIVIOUS TO THE HELL I AM IN NOW!!!!!



>squeezes the sides of his head in an effort to keep his blood vessels from bursting<

Nothing..to...do...no...distraction...no..solace.. .no...rest!!

I'm in hell...this is hell..hell exists, and this is it...oh help me..no..don't help me..I need to help me...BUT HOW!!

....................

-SublimeZen124

Yeah, that about sums it up for me...

quote:Originally posted by SublimeZen124:

Yeah, that about sums it up for me...

Same...fucking girls...

why do I try to avoid sex in the first place?

hmmmm

There is a certain ignorant bliss to be found in virginity.

It isn't stalking if you really love her. Besides, find her, force yourself on her, he he he , and sodomize her, but kiss her while you are butt fucking her so that she will understand that you really do love her! If she keeps screaming after all of this, force her to do ass to mouth. And get pictures and tell her that you now own her and from this day forward, she will be forced to do porn flicks with 300 pound black guys with cocks down to their kneecaps! Post all of the nasty pics on a domain and you will ruin her for life. Ha Ha Ha . Make money off the bitch man.

infrared.that brought a tear to my eye...seriously...i went through the same thing..10 months..10 months i sacrificed my future, my life, and all of my friendships for her..only for her to steal all of my friends, lie to me, and cheat on my with one of my best friends..and you know what the worst part is? they couldnt give a fucking shit less, they are always so much happier, and when i asked her why once..she told me "you know what, im not allowed to talk to you, nor do i want to, i dont like you anymore chris, i actually hate you, and since your alwasy trying to get into my fucking business, i am with someoneone right now, dan, im sure you remember him from the concert last night..." andafter telling my friends what she did, and how i nearly committed suicide she had the fucking nerve to ay "i dont think you know how bad you fucked up my life" last wek she came up to me in front of a bunch of my friends, and some of hers, and a bunch of people who really looked up to us and what we managed to do with our relationship and she said "hey im sory for all the shit i put you through..i hope we can still be friends.." and you know what i said? "im not alowed to talk to you, nor do i want to, i dont like you anymore heather, i actually fucking hate you, and since your always getting nito my shit, i am with someone right now, your best friend, jeny (she was super jealous of her), and 2 other girls you have no clue exist, and they dont fucking like you either, so honestly heather, i could give a fuck less how much you want to be friends, YOU fucked it up.." the hardest thing i've ever done in my life was that..infra man your probably never gonna share those times with her again.i still cry when i think about it, ill fuckin admit it, i do, i break down wheneveri think of what we had, and how she just tossed it all away.. and you know the only thing i said after she started crying in front of everyone? "it doesnt feel very good does it? your lucky, this is nothing compared to the fucking hell you put me through" turned around, and walked away from her for the last time...the best thing you can do, is mourn, and remember the good times you had, dont think about the other guy, just what you and her had, and that one day, you'll find someone that special again..thats prety much the only reason i get out of bed every morning anymore..best of luck man...best of luck

c2

That's some sweet, sweet revenge. That would've made me feel right better if I'd pulled it.