so yeah, my obsession got pregnant and it isn't mine. old news. anyway, i've been as supportive as possible, helped her as best i could. yet the one thing i find myself hoping for more than anything is for her to lose the baby. i've even considered employing my vast chemical knowledge persuant to this desire. until last night.

last night i dreamt that she came to me, explaining that she had been raped and that she lost the baby. she looked so thin and frail. she was nothing but skin and bones wearing her now worthless maternity clothes. i woke up feeling awful and ashamed of myself. this happening more and more frequently these days.

in one dream i managed to let her go but later in the same dream a bunch of zombies ate my friends and all i had to kill them was my knife. it's getting bad. i don't want to sleep because i know what i'll dream...

someone has to have been through this before. how can i square with myself here? what do i do to make it go away?

[This message has been edited by Piracy (edited 04-12-2004).]

Aww shit man this is fucked up.

just remember that it wasnt your fault she got raped.

jeezus thats lame help - Im sorry I dont know what to say

wow that's deep.

your dreams tell me 2 things:

1) that your innermost desire is that the baby is unwanted (a rape), and that she had sex with someone else involuntarily (dream on, pal)

2) and the other thing is that with such vivid and violent dreams, you're not drinking enough water before bed. i hate to sound like a mom, but dehydrated dreams = violent dreams, like chewing off people's jugulars and tearing people apart etc.

i know this sounds cruel, but a pregnant girl eventually realises that she has important needs, and she will often do anything for the welfare of the baby, and you don't want to get sucked into that kind of manipulation. especially when you are already so madly in love with her.

it's not the dreams you will be afraid of, it's the cold hard reality.

You're a sick piece of shit for even thinking about poisoning her and forcing an unwanted and unexpected abortion on her. Fuck you!!!

Piracy honey, Tabiba had some good points, and you know it. Call me. I'd like to discuss this with you.



[This message has been edited by Christy's Girl (edited 04-13-2004).]