Anyway, so there's this girl. Lets call her Girl.

It all started when I moved when I was about 12-13 (4th grade) I think. I met her at a summer travel camp and I still remember her being the same perfect thing existing then. Anyway I don't remember much of what was between us over the years except the casual talking and seeing each other in school, school bus rides, and parties, but she is still in my brain whether I want her to be or not.

You see, she's got this gift. Everyone, I mean everyone she meets falls in love with her or becomes enfatuated, call it what you will. She is just that charismatic and pretty. I know this because I've asked around using my methods of submissive and evasive questioning.

Im not sure how deep I want to go with this but check it: It's been 9 years and I still think about her, everyday. I mean I've been with other girls and have had meaningful relationships but none can compare to Girl on even the slightest level which is usually the reason why my relationships don't last.

It's been a couple of years since we've seen each other being that she went away to college and I joined the military. I remember one day, I went to her college telling myself I was going there just to have a meeting with the med school admissions dean to see if I could goto school there, when really after a couple years of thought I went there just to see if I would see her. I didn't.

I force myself to try to forget her so I could get on with my love life and ultimatly end up failing. As for how she feels about me? it's questionable. When we were around each other it seemed like the majority of her focus was on me and when I look back, we were like two little kids excited to be around each other. (the blushing, subconcious nervous ticks, etc...)

Neither of us, or I wasn't mature enough to explain my feelings to her about her. Through high school... she had boyfriends and I had 1 or 2 girlfriends, but still when we were around and talking to each other it felt like... sparks.

Funny thing is when I was doing my asking around it seemed that everyone else felt the same way. (Im not sure about exactly the same way) but EVERYONE has this undeniable thing for her.

Like I said.. it's been a couple years since I've seen her and now people my age (20-22) are having children and are getting married (in the military anyway) and I was thinking about tracking her down and just show up one day to see if the sparks are stil there but Im worried if she has a life of her own now and for me to disrupt that would be unfair to me and her.

I don't know how to approach this situation but it really is messing up a big part of my life. I don't really have anything to offer her except complete alliegence and a promise to give her the wedding of her dreams.

FUCK! I can't even picture her face, what did she do to me!?!?! Im in love with someone I don't know... can anyone help me?

Edit: I don't do this often, but that big block of gray text was just too hard to read. I broke it up into paragraphs to improve the chances others will read, ok? --DC

[This message has been edited by deadlycindy (edited 03-29-2004).]

I think I've encountered this type of girl before. The type of girl who has a hundred ex's all doing her bidding? Yeah. The man eater.

Chances are though, you're just regretting never hooking up with her. It's probably not love, just regret. The "what if's" of life can be a bitch, but it's best to just let go.

-Nocuous

I was 12 in seventh grade... So you were/will be 20 when you graduate?

Thanks DC,

but Im not the type of guy who gets bossed around. I mean, yeah I'll do alot for her but Im not stupid. and like I said, I've tried moving on, It won't work. But Im going to look more into the man-eater thing.

I don't remember the whole age:grade ratio but I was a year behind than what I was supposed to be. Im 21 now. So I guess 9-10 I was when we met.

[This message has been edited by Kaijec Torsf (edited 03-29-2004).]

quote:Originally posted by SublimeZen124:

I was 12 in seventh grade... So you were/will be 20 when you graduate?

lol, hehehehe sorry but 20. ill graduate from itt when im 20

quote:Originally posted by nocuous:



Chances are though, you're just regretting never hooking up with her. It's probably not love, just regret. The "what if's" of life can be a bitch, but it's best to just let go.

-Nocuous

Agreed.

So there's this girl right?



are you asking if theres a girl, sure there are a lot of girls.

Sorry i just thought id be an ass.

lol, ya there is this girl... I guess the regret thing is working.. Im glad I got it out though finally even if it's totse that I got it out on. Helping out lots... thanks guys.

Yeah dude, nothing is worth having regrets over.