I just left to grab a cup of coffee at the shop down my street for awhile; something I usually always do. I came back and found a note taped to my door. It was from Kelly, my ex, who can't seem to make up her god damn mind. The note read...

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me



I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me [NOTE: I'm not with her]

I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me...



Yes, I realize that it's a highly-depressing Evanescence song.

That's all she wrote. I guess she's identifying with it, or something...Hearing that song before anything happened to me, I assumed it had to do with a woman who couldn't get over someone, but badly wanted to, basically.

What the fuck? This is what fucking happened last time: She wanted to "take a break", and instead I just axed it, and then she ended up wanting me back again, and after having to work long and hard to get me back, we do...and then I get left again because she told me she loved someone else (hence my swallowing of Xanax and booze the other night..).

Now this...I'm getting Evanescence lyrics written to me.

Ugh, this is just maddening. I can't even believe this girl anymore; how could I have ever loved someone who was so wishy-washy...I guess I'll never know.

The problem is, though..I still love her. That song; I could apply every word of it to how I feel about her now.

Fuck. Fucking emotion again, fucking complication. I don't need this shit, anymore..good god. I mean, I have a life to repair, a job to do, happiness to find; I don't need her dragging me down like that.

I'm not sure if she's asking for me back or not, but for god's sake..If she is, there's no way in hell I could ever go back now. I learned my lesson last time.

Egh..anyway. My apologies to the S&A community for my shit, but I mean..for god's sake!!

And that song is really fucking depressing.

-Infrared



[This message has been edited by Infrared (edited 03-24-2004).]

im so sorry infrared, you dont deserve this shit. emotional blackmail at its finest.

the magic of venting, sounds like you still might like her, just a hunch. donty go back with her if it pisses you off that much.

I think you should call her up and be like i cant believe you just did that, writing me a note trying to hook back up with me, GAH , and not only that but you cant even be original! you have to use someone elses words for your words. Heartless bitch. and then hang up.

Apparently, I still have "all of her". Maybe I should use it to my advantage.

..That would be my first impulse, but then Karma would bite me in the ass for it.

Dident read the whole thing,but i read those lyrics they where pritty cool.

it will work in your favor to completly ignore her. shit, she's fucking gettin off on your pain dude. thats low.

You have a bitch of an ex girlfriend. SHe doesn't even love you enough to write her own poem for you. She has to go and jack someone else's art to express her feelings for you. What a fucking symp ass bitch, bitch thing to do.

If you get anymore letters from her, just dont open them. She wants more, and unless you want to get stuck with an emotionally unstable chick, cut off the connection. Dont answer her calls, read her letters or emails etc. Just stay away.

She sounds like she needs some help.

I hate that song.

pretty crazy that i was listening to evanescence when i was reading this but my advice would be to ignore her and just get on with your life...she doesnt sounds like the kind of person you really want to be with.

Yeah, this is sounding pretty unhealthy to me. Cut her loose.

What the fuck do you all think I'm doing; buying into it?

Christ, you people. Read, not skim.

Start calling her incessantly and ask "what does this MEAN?" "Can we get back together?" "Huh, huh? Yes or no? Huh?" and other gibberish to freak her out and make her leave you alone.

I swear I read everything and didn't only skim.

do you really want to be with somebody who quotes Evanescence lyrics? hehe, just kidding.

I thought she'd written it herself or something - which would have been cute, but still. this totally is emotional blackmail. do you get anything from the relationship? think about it seriously. if you are thinking about getting back with her, is it for fear that you won't find somebody else, or because you actually want to?

chin up though dude!

Okay, I will iterate one more time...

I

Am

Not

Getting

Back

With

Her

AND

I

Stated

This

In

My

First

Post.

READ!!

Otherwise, thank you, and have a lovely evening.

quote:Originally posted by Infrared:



I'm not sure if she's asking for me back or not, but for god's sake..If she is, there's no way in hell I could ever go back now. I learned my lesson last time.





/Restrains homicidal urges

Cindy, please make me a Xanax sammich before I kill a foo.

quote:Originally posted by KidKelko:

You have a bitch of an ex girlfriend. SHe doesn't even love you enough to write her own poem for you. She has to go and jack someone else's art to express her feelings for you. What a fucking symp ass bitch, bitch thing to do.

Thats what i thought, who steals lyrics to wrtie a note

to get a sammich you need another option and right now i dont think you have that.

She didn't really steal them; I knew she loved the song. But her usage was irritating.

And bushy, I always have thatoption. It's love I have a hard time coming by.

you should put a note on her door that reads,"i was thinking about getting back with you, but holy shit, you listen to Evanescence? Fuck off."

Wow. Well, since you have ruled out getting back with her, then I think the bast thing to do is to ignore it, at least until she can be so creepy and pyscho. If she can't, then oh well.

Infrared. You're a proper wanker.

You're full of feaces and your a fag.

Why the fuk wud u go to the shop for coffee when you can get a cup and make your own?

Another bull story from you.

HAHAHA, man, you're an idiot.

I don't even need to explain why.

Infrared, I'm not saying this sarcastically, I'm saying it full serious.

Cut off full contact from her and go fuck ten other women. After you've done that any feelings you have towards her (all the pain, from being fucked around) will go away, and she will only be a memory. Think about it; if you have ten other women to care for, would you really bother with her?

I agree with SHELLI, she's getting off on your pain dude. Do you even want to KNOW someone who would do that? I know I wouldn't tolerate any of that crap.

Chances are if you do this she'll wisen up anyway, and you'll be the one doing all the complicating (for HER!)

Just my two cents anyway.

Sodomize her. Then get a restraining order against her.

You know how much women want men who ignore them. Give her a little (a few inches) then dis-own 'er.

Maybe, she wants you as one member of her male harem. Kinda keep you in Enuch status, except when she has use for you. What a thrill she could get, a bunch of guys who only get it when she gives it. Usually it's a guy thing, to have a bunch of girls who are

only supposed to get it from him.

The important thing: Spread disease, if you can. Disease helps keep th pop. down & that is good.

I've sodomized her in every way imaginable in the, oh...3 1/2 - 4 years we were fucking. And I got a phone call from the dear girl today; among many other things, she tells me, "If it makes you feel better, he [guy she apparently "loves"] does nothing for me sexually; you're the only one who ever did".

I'd be honored, but I'm just sickened instead.

quote:Originally posted by Infrared:

I've sodomized her in every way imaginable in the, oh...3 1/2 - 4 years we were fucking. And I got a phone call from the dear girl today; among many other things, she tells me, "If it makes you feel better, he [guy she apparently "loves"] does nothing for me sexually; you're the only one who ever did".

I'd be honored, but I'm just sickened instead.



omg, what a bitch.

Pimp her out. Nothing like getting her done by many others, to harden yer heart. "Honey if youse really care for me, you'll do

my buddy(s), here."

You could parlay this beautiful, little ex into a humongous pile o' Jacksons.

quote:Originally posted by Infrared:

I've sodomized her in every way imaginable in the, oh...3 1/2 - 4 years we were fucking. And I got a phone call from the dear girl today; among many other things, she tells me, "If it makes you feel better, he [guy she apparently "loves"] does nothing for me sexually; you're the only one who ever did".

I'd be honored, but I'm just sickened instead.



Oh HELL no! Infra if I was in your case, and my Ex calls me and tells me the other guy did nothing for her sexually, that bitch would be a memory in a split heart-beat. Your a better person than that, don't take that shit from her!

Dude, just give her a swift backhand and move on.

A lot of people who haven't learned how fucking weak it is to use someone else's shit like this "borrow" lyrics. I'm not saying it should never be done, but put your own goddamn words in there too. Only in the rarest of circumstances can using someone else's song lyrics alone be the right way to send a message. In that respect, it's hard for me to knock her *too* hard.

In every other respect, it's quite easy. She's off her goddamn cracker, and should be treated as such until she goes the fuck away. It's harsh, but if you don't get harsh, I'm not sure how *you* will end up when this begins to linger.

How he will end up? He could go "traditonal",

get together with her, screw a few times, she

gets preggers, doesn't tell him, till she calls him up 10yrs later for child support.

Which will, of course, really impress the girl he's with at the time.