I want love.

I want somebody. I want somebody who can love me without so much ambiguity and without letting others get in the way; someone who can devote herself to me (this doesn't mean "let Infrared consume all your time or he'll get jealous", it means "devote yourself to Infrared, don't string other guys along, be good to him"), someone who really does love me, someone I can really love; someone who's sincere to me and open and can cry on my shoulder, someone who can feel as if everything is right in the world when she's in my arms, not someone who hides things from me or is insincere to me, usually in the guise of "I knew it would hurt you, so I didn't tell you".

Admittedly, I want somebody who can look up to me, and yet who also has confidence enough in herself to see herself on my very same level; not someone who tells me, "I don't deserve you" or "How can you love someone like me". I want somebody who I mean the world to.

What makes me feel I even deserve someone who meets these highly-basic characteristics (all the things I want could never be worded)? Because I just do. I'm a man who has confidence in himself and can devote himself to someone; who will give anything just to see his love smile for a day, even if it causes him some pain. This devotion has gotten me hurt many times in the past; yes, it is in check, but it's still as passionate as ever. My love is a pure one; it's one that she can come home to and be wrapped in at any time, it's one that isn't ambiguous and insincere.

I want love, and I want to give love. I have a lot of love to give, even after giving lots of love and, though having it return, still having not found what I'm looking for, apparently. All the things that I want I can give back, and more.

But loving me or being loved by me doesn't have to be some convoluted thing. While I want someone who can challenge me on intellectual levels and who isn't my lapdog, I also want someone who is willing to listen to me. I'm just a 6'2", 190-lb. man who likes rock music, can work well with his hands, figure out anything mechanical, snipe a gallon milkjug from 800 yards away with iron sights. Who can apply many of his hand-related skills in bed, not to mention.

I want someone. I want to want someone. I have a lot to give, and I want to give it, before it's too late. I want to find someone. I want to find someone who loves me and who I can give all my love to. Is she out there somewhere? I wonder when I will find out?

/rant. No replies necessary. I didn't know where else to put it.

-Infrared

you know you are a lonely loser when...

you have just described what probably every other person wants/hopes for (myself included). patience is a virtue.

Yeah, I figured I'd get a reply like that, along with "shut up attention whore" and "you're pathetic", etc. I don't really care; nobody can touch me when I know exactly where I'm headed and when I'm revealing myself. It only exposes to us your immaturity and closed mind, not some fault of mine.

EDIT: Was referring to first poster

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Who doesn't?

Shut up you attention whore, you're pathetic

j/k As with the afforementioned thoughts, you have described the dreams and wishes of many.

Keep in mind that it is just not devotion you need to look for, make sure they have that something extra that can help with it.

Deadlycindy quote: speaking for myself, and other intellectual people, we're looking for that special someone with that little extra thing mixed in.

And I tend to agree, with just ending a 1.4 year relationship and ending a five year relationship at the start of the former.

E] forgot to include "you're pathetic"



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quote:Originally posted by Infrared:

Yeah, I figured I'd get a reply like that, along with "shut up attention whore" and "you're pathetic", etc. I don't really care; nobody can touch me when I know exactly where I'm headed and when I'm revealing myself. It only exposes to us your immaturity and closed mind, not some fault of mine.

EDIT: Was referring to first poster

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Maybe if you spent less time writing strung-out pointless bitch posts and more time actually going "out", you might coincidently meet a HUMAN FEMALE!!!! Who would have thought?`!?!?!?1 Females are on the OUTSIDE?????

I never said I didn't meet females. I said I want love from one of them, and I'm not finding it.

quote:Originally posted by Infrared:

I never said I didn't meet females. I said I want love from one of them, and I'm not finding it.

Ok well, on the real for a second, I think your looking too hard then. your spendinga lot of time complaining about women. Which means, your taking the whole relationship thing way too seriously. One thing I've learned is with love, you cant look for it. It just comes to you. it might hurt meanwhile, but the only time your going to get it is when you stop whining. No woman likes a wimpy man. maybe 1 or 2 in asia or something but not many.

quote:Originally posted by Psychotogen:



Maybe if you spent less time writing strung-out pointless bitch posts and more time actually going "out", you might coincidently meet a HUMAN FEMALE!!!! Who would have thought?`!?!?!?1 Females are on the OUTSIDE?????





Its posts like these that make these boards a terrible place to be sometimes.

quote:Originally posted by Psychotogen:

...with love, you cant look for it. It just comes to you.

yeah, except when it comes and you know the other person doesn't/will never feel the same, then it's hell, not love.

anywho, live young and happy and take each day as it comes, if you go out to "look for love" chances are you won't find it. (hence above quote)

quote:Originally posted by devilsAngel:

yeah, except when it comes and you know the other person doesn't/will never feel the same, then it's hell, not love.



My fucking point exactly!

I used to believe I was good enough to have all of those lovely things in a partner... too bad it's up to others to decide what you do and don't deserve, eh.

quote:Originally posted by exesept:

you know you are a lonely loser when...



Damn it noob learn some respect for your elders. you make me want to kill you.



EDIT: yeah i know what i just said.

Oh and nice to see you sarc.

And i know what it feels liek to be unloved.

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Edit2: now im sad, its three am and I feel unloved Damn it, damn it all. I wish noone left for spring break, campus is kinda empty, and everyone left me here. but i still have my "friend" even thought i dont love her and she dosent love me, as long as i get some.

[This message has been edited by bushy (edited 03-24-2004).]

HAHA, They all came to Florida. Thats where I live. :P

Dr. Dork can give you some luvin'.

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quote:Originally posted by heisler:

Dr. Dork can give you some luvin'.

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HAHAHAHA IS THAT YOU?

That actually looks like one of the mechanics here were I work.

Odd guy, Wife still lived with ex husband, but divorced at time, sat in kitchen, only in boxers, drinking coffee from the ex husbands cup, with the ex'es favorite daughter on his lap, and just said in reply to the question "what are you doin here?" .."well, its morning, im in my boxers, and I date your ex wife, what the hell do you think Im doing here, I'm banging her in the room nextdoor." and then proceeded to challenge the ex to a fight.