my heart has just been broken...me and my ex broke up yesterday but i thought we were getting back...i thought she loved me and i just foundout she stopped loving me months ago..we have had extremely bad problems..but i think she has found happiness in 1 of my enemys. i would beat the shit out of him and her but he snitched on me to the cops...so im not allowed in his town or i get arrested. usually when my girl does something really bad i cry, and im man enough to admit it. but right now i have a blank stare on my face, my eye keeps twitchin and i feel numb. does anyone know what is happening to me? i think im turning evil...i always have had thoughts of being evil and i have always done bad things but now something has changed...im very scared i dont know what is happening to me. please only mature responses, thank you.

Take time. Let yourself cry, and cunsume it. Cause I think the only way to get over sarrow is to consume it.

Your frightened because it might consume you. And now you won't know. Slow down, this isn't a reason to rush. Time answers all. Any question you have time can answer. Yesterday isn't to long ago. If your bitter 2 months from now its time to worry.

Just keep it in mind and do what is right for you.

i cant cry,, cant smile cant laugh. i am numb... all i have is evil thougts.

Truthfully there is nothing any of us can say that will make you feel better.

Be glad that you can't go and beat the shit out of the guy. I hate to be cliche, but you you are the better man.

I know that numb feeling. It's beyond crying. When a relationship ends like that, it is like your soul is gone. The relationship has been a defining thing to you for months, you have put your time, love and effort into it and now it is gone. It's almost as though the floor has been pulled from under your feet.

Don't make this an excuse to be evil. Make it an excuse to become a better person. Everyone always talks about defining moments, and this is one of them. You have to react to it. You can either get angry, bottle it up, and then bad will come about, or you can be upset about it, talk to people about it, and give it time and end up in a better place. I think you are actually making it better by talking about somewhere. Do you have someone that you feel comfortable talking about it too in person?

Remember that getting over a relationship takes time. It can take months. The numbness doesn't just disappear. Being able to love and trust again seem impossible, but as time goes on, it will get better.

What are your creative outlets? Try writing music, poems, stories, painting or drawing. You could be surprised what you can do with the emotion. It will help you to try it as long as you dont get frustrated and let things flow.

Please talk to someone about it. Talking will make it better, I promise. Just letting the feeling out will calm you down. If you ever need to talk, just let me know that you want to talk and I'll give you my info.

quote:Originally posted by thepowerofcheese:

i cant cry,, cant smile cant laugh. i am numb... all i have is evil thougts.

Go do something get in a fight maybe when you're beating the shit out of the person [not your ex's bf unless you want to] you'll be able to cry and let go. Worked for me once, yes I know sounds kind of like fight club but I dunno I have always been able to let go through violence.

Don't do anything stupid, that you'll regret. I've had lots of bad/evil thoughts too when I've been depressed or really emotional. Some times I go through with them, and other times I don't. But as good as it feels, it's never worth it. I know it's nice to just let go and go crazy, but unless you're out in the middle of the field and aren't going to hurt anyone I would really suggest against it. It only comes back to haunt you...

well i feel that this has woken me up, ive always had thoughts of how the world sucks and how all people are sheeps, and how we can all change the world but we waste our potential. i share many qualities and faults with hitler. i belive a part of me inside has been awoken, and i am going to start my little "venture". i believe i am going to be an entreprenaur in the business in life. i will change this world and sculpt it into my own.

i would not do anything stupid, i am an EXTREMELY intelligent person and i am not bragging, before anything i do i think what effect it will have on my future, for example i would never waste 1000 dollars on a hooker, because the fun would only last a few hours and then the next day i would be broke. why waste so much on so little time when i could use it wisely and get alot of things? if u think like i do you will realize the real messege i am trying to get across.

In some ways this miht seem like a flame or something but thats not how I intend it.

You are not turning evil for a start. The bad thingsyou are talking about are only bad in your head most likly by the way you speak of him and her. You are not a bad person. If you were you wouldn't have the intelligence to stop yourself from beating the shit out of him.

You want to tell yourself you can beat him because you think she is gone off with him which is only natural but will get you nowhere and I think that you know that and thats why you are refraining from it. You want to be able to prove to yourself and all else that you are a bigger better perosn than him and all and that she is stupid for not loving you and all.

Ok well again thats natural but I can be almost 100% sure you nor she were in love! Yes you had feelings and maybe alot of strong ones but love? No!

I mean love is a term that is thrown round too loosely. I mean I love my Fiancee! She loves me! I know that if anything happened to me she would do anything for me as I would for her or her child (Not mine) but because I know how much he means to her and how it would urt her. And I mean anything. I mean we have both gone through alot to be with each other and will continue to do so. I knwo that no mater what happens I iwll always feel this way even if she were to go off with some other guy and we split I couldnt just turn that feeling off. Nor could she.

Just try talking to her first and tell her you want to be with her and all and see what happens. I sh says no then all you can do is move on to the next one. Might seem harsh but like I said love isnt a feelign you turn on and off especially just like that at that age.

i know what love is, and we were in it...at the beggining we were loyal. then i messed up...and she did what i am doing now. im taking any step to fixing us, i make her feel good, i worry about her because she cuts herself and she engraved my name into her leg, please dont mistake me for a fool, i am 100 percent sure this is love so give me advice, dont try to think that you know what is completely going on.

*bump*

You're feeling numb, eh? Well, I say, give it about a month, if it doesn't start to fade away by itself, you need to start helping yourself get over it. Go out, do crazy shit. Bungee jump, cliff dive, find a deserted road and drive as fast as you can... anything you can do to get yourself to feel some sort of strong emotion.

The numbness can usually be characterized as "dead inside." So what you have to do is wake yourself back up. Don't sit around and feel sorry for yourself (for too long anyway, everyone needs time to to get over it, but not that much.) Go out, go crazy, let loose, and forget about everything and everyone and just have fun. Hope that helped.

quote:Originally posted by thepowerofcheese:

i know what love is, and we were in it...at the beggining we were loyal. then i messed up...and she did what i am doing now. im taking any step to fixing us, i make her feel good, i worry about her because she cuts herself and she engraved my name into her leg, please dont mistake me for a fool, i am 100 percent sure this is love so give me advice, dont try to think that you know what is completely going on.

Don't get me wrong Im not even beginning to try to say I know all of whats going on, Im just giving my opinion and advice based on what Ive read so far.

As for you worrying about her over her cutting herself, ok that again doesnt mean you are in love, Im not trying to say that its definatly not love but concern like that though a good thing is not the same. Anyway you being concerned for her like that I can totally understand as my fiancee is both bullimic and a self harmer and I got really upset when she showed me all of the scars on her wrists. I mean she has had skin grafts because one was so bad. I worry about her every day of the week that Im not beside her becasue I am scared something will happen and she will deal with it by cutting herself. Basically I know how hard it must be for you while with the girl being worried and nw you find yourself without her and the worry is amplified as you feel even more helpless than when you were with her.

I really think you are doiing the right thing in trying to get back with her and hopefully you can be a stable influence in her life and she can rreturn the feelings that you have for her. I mean if it is love then it is certainly worth taking all steps to make it work. I knwo Ive had to do things I wasnt too happy about to make things work in my relationship.

get over her. she wont come bak. she has been lying to u all this time. dont chase.

quote:Originally posted by thepowerofcheese:

i cant cry,, cant smile cant laugh. i am numb... all i have is evil thougts.



Welcome to my world. Now all you need is no remorse (like me) and some bad thoughts in your head, and you're all set to be a serial killer