okay, ill start on monday...

Monday: a girl that i kind of like but never thought would ask me out asks me to a concert for friday (i had a post about this acually)

Tuesday: work, normal day

Wednesday: normal day

Thursday: excellent day, went to the mall and hung out with a girl i met online a while ago and had a lot of fun (all we did was hang out nothing romantic/sexual)

Friday: wake up at one, dick around till 4:30-ish, get ready, leave around 6, pick up my paycheck, get to her house around 7 and leave right away.. cool date, goodnight kiss and hug, thats it, but in a good way because i kindof like her in a way that i wana take things slow at the start

Today: Wake up, stay up for 10-ish minutes, in kindof bad mood, decide theres nothing to do, go back to bed for an hour.. get up, go out to the bank, and other shit i need to do, and drive around (still in a bad mood). So i go into work at 3 and my friend gets there ar 4 (when his shift starts) a little later we were out smoking cigarrettes, and when we came in i got (within 10 minutes) extremely depressed. I didnt want to talk to him realy, and was thinking about the girl i went out with and how she might not like me and how if we end up going out we will break up and i felt this crushing saddness and depression.. there were also other issues but i literally wanted to just go to sleep, or into a coma.. the whole idea of a break up with somebody i like was just too crushing... About an hour and a half later I got a little better and mellowed out, but for that little while, even moving was hard to do. I wouldhave left work if i hadnt been working with my friend (which for shure means losing mu job). I just wanted to disappear or go to sleep, not as much as die, but it did cross my mind... The depression i felt was just SO crushing though, it was as though i had been broken up with by somebody i love and care about.. I even considered going home and telling my parents about it which is EXTREMELY un-like me to do..

Its fucked up because i theoreticaly have everything going for me at the moment but i cant avoid the thought of a break up (even though i dont even know if i will be planning on asking her out!) or the thought that maybe she just acted happy last night but realy wasnt and wanted to be nice because she invited me..

if anybody has some input i would appreciate it.. thanks

stop bitching and moaning

Sounds like some degree of clinical depression. If you're down for no apparent reason, you might have issues you need to sort out (whether you're conscious of them or not) or you may have chemical imbalances.

Dreading something like a breakup with a girl you haven't gotten together with is a sign of something amiss. Wanting to just "go into a coma" or such is also a sign.

If you feel comfortable telling your parents, do so, and say you might need counseling.

Don't let it get you down. The thought of break up crosses everyones mind. Though break up is enevitable its better to get what you have now, even though you are taking it slowly. Who knows you two could be the start of something beautiful.

You just never know until you go for it. Trust yourself on what you feel in this situation. If you are unsure about it then don't go along with it. Follow your heart.

That seems like a horoscope.

People get depressed. Deal with it.

If you can afford medication for it, then more power to you. Otherwise, cease your bitching.

What are ya gonna do when you have a real situation to deal with?

Get some conseling.

this doesn't happen often, otherwise i would just be bitching.. i cant ever acually remember feeling this depressed at all, let alone without any obvious reason. I've been through break ups and i was depressed but not even as bad as i was today.. im not new to the whole depression aspect of life, trust me, this was just so sudden and intense

You like the girl, you don't want to break up with her, so when you imagine the worst, it's a depressing state of mind. What's so odd about that? When I had a girlfriend, I was driving home from work one night and heard the Pearl Jam cover of "Last Kiss" on the radio (yes, I used to listen to the radio, shameful). I imagined that happening to us and started damn near bawling my eyes out.

That was the only such occurance in almost one year together. It happens, nothing to get freaked about.

thanks.. im pretty much back to normal.. when you're in that state of mind even if you KNOW things will be different, it doenst do shit because it seems like they will NEVER be okay.. i guess i was still very depressed when i posted, but still it was more depressed than i have ever been.. all's well that ends well i guess.. Thanks to spiffy, too.. i was imagining the song "a night like this" by the Smashing Pumpkins at the time, too, which helps put things in perspective, i guess i exerienced pretty much the same thing you did

Well done. I still get laid more than you ever will. Loser.

You said you just kind of slipped into it really fast? If it continues to happen you could be Bipolar. It's not really that bad, I kind of diagnosed myself with it. I looked up all the symptoms online, and my personality is pretty much exactly all the symptoms. Then I started noticing how quickly I can go from being really out going and talkative to extremely silent. But, enough about me... this is about you. If it does continue see a doctor, and if you are just Bipolar, you don't seem that horribly bad, so you won't need medication.

what do u have going for you again?...SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU BABY

Good christ. Unless a doctor diagnoses your ass, and he's not trying to get prescriptions sold, you're not fucking bipolar or ADD-riddled or depressed or any of that shit. Stop thinking you are, and stop trying to convince everyone else they might be too. Being having this or that syndrome doesn't make you cool, so shut the fuck up.