See, this is a post with really no point, except to express my happy manic-ness.

Ever been with a person who shared your interests and so forth, but just.. didn't click? As if, everything else is right about them, but something is just 'bleh'.

But then you can just find someone, someone who in all aspects, shouldn't be worth the effort, but somehow is. Someone who accepts you for who you are, regardless of your quirks and how god-awful you look in the morning...

And that's what made me happy.

And it just makes up for everything;

Given, my family is racist for the most part [he's black], he's two years older than me, and had a great love of coke.

But he gave up coke for the most part [as in, if I get hold of some, then he'll do it, but he won't spend money on it], he's willing to ignore my families reactions, and he deals with my immaturity.

Today's his birthday, and I arranged so he had today off work, so we sat at the beach during the early hours of the morning, smoking from a nargile [hookah in otherwords], just being together. [He's asleep right now, I have insomnia, but, eh, he doesn't, we're going out at night again]

And it just feels so wonderful to have someone accept you so fully;

It's not in a door-mat way, where he just deals with it, and that's it. Of course, he tries to get me to do things like go to the docters, eat, sleep more, etc. But, he accepts that I can throw away bills because they don't contain drugs. Or I spend more money on bottled water than on food. And of course, my mood swings.

And everything just "clicks" so well.

I can't even begin to explain it; I'm not generally clingy to people in that way, but he knows how much I dislike just going to school [I actually enjoy learning, just not the enviroment it's in], so he phones me during the middle of the day to make me laugh about something or just to check I'm okay, and if he was to leave for even a week-end, it feels like devestation.

It makes me feel like I want to do something to just.. Make it up to him in a way, just to show how much I apparetiate everything he's done, his company, and how much I love him.

And, one day I will.

I did say this had no point, so kudos to you if you read it, because it's just my blabbering.

[And to the pessemists [sp?] who say it's just obsessiveness/fleeting feelings/and so forth; We've known each other for 3 years as very close friends, and our relationship progressed on friendship, not as a jump into steady relationship where it feels overbearing and claustrophobic]

quote:Ever been with a person who shared your interests and so forth, but just.. didn't click? As if, everything else is right about them, but something is just 'bleh'.

But then you can just find someone, someone who in all aspects, shouldn't be worth the effort, but somehow is. Someone who accepts you for who you are, regardless of your quirks and how god-awful you look in the morning...

It's called being human...There's no real way to explain it...It just...Happens!

It's just chemistry, I guess. Different for everybody, and it's near impossible to find someone with the same interests as you and has the same chemistry and everything. But in the end, I think it's chemistry that counts. But what is chemistry? I think it's just that unexplainable some people have for some other specific people for no apparent reason.



Oh, and by the way, are you still in Israel? I know that in some areas, racism is kind of an issue. What do your friends think about the race thing? Just curious.

quote:Originally posted by jojabr:





Oh, and by the way, are you still in Israel? I know that in some areas, racism is kind of an issue. What do your friends think about the race thing? Just curious.

Indeed I am.

See, I go to a catholic english speaking school [The amount of effort I put into speaking English, I'm not gonna waste by going to some shite school] - So, it's mostly people from other countries, and arabs. And neither group sees much into racism and the like. [5 people I spent the most time with are Angolian and Arab]

But outside of schooling; People I know from before, they tend to have issues with it... But it's me, so me being me, they just take it as one of my quirks.

It tends to be lil old ladies and conservative women who like butting in that make comments like 'What's a nice white girl doing with him ?' [To which, I gleefully (and immaturelly ) respond 'having sex']

As long as I'm happy, the rest of them can go fuck themselves.

quote:Originally posted by Paranoid_Pothead:

As long as I'm happy, the rest of them can go fuck themselves.

Amen!

I've got another pointless question to ask you. Do you speak to your boyfriend in Hebrew? Or English? Or Arabic? Or what?

Ah, multilingualism is great...

quote:Originally posted by jojabr:

Originally posted by Paranoid_Pothead:

As long as I'm happy, the rest of them can go fuck themselves.

Amen!

I've got another pointless question to ask you. Do you speak to your boyfriend in Hebrew? Or English? Or Arabic? Or what?

Ah, multilingualism is great...



English; He's British himself, so whilst accidently I do speak to him in Russian and Hebrew, he'll just stare blankly at me for the most part and then I remember to speak English to him. [He's learning though, mwahaha]

And a plus side; His mum doesn't hate my guts. Which is a welcome change. [For the most part, she wants to feed me; Lovely Jamaican woman, loves cooking and friendly to everyone]

I'm so happy. It seems to effortless. Of course, there is effort involved, but it's not the type where... You worry over what gift to get. The effort comes at a mutual level and just seems so simple.

And so forth...

Bask in my glowy happiness!

*basks with envy*

*er, if that's possible, hrm*