In class today I had a lot of freetime and being bored I remember reading somewhere that if you put pen to paper and write whatever flows for long enough your subconcious feelings and desires will eventually surface into the writing.

Well, here's mine.



"i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her she so cruel such a bitch why did she dump me stupid 'i just want to be friends' line makes me feel so inadequate stupid useless why did she i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her shes so pretty nice it hurts i don't care i want to kill her hurt her stangle her hit her but i love her? what is love do i love her so think so mabye not hurts to see her so much but i can't look at her talk to her she doesn't talk to me she wants to but i don't talk to her because it hurts so much inside i trusted her loved her she said she loved me she still does no she dosen't why would she dump me then i don't want to be friends with her cause i love her how can i be friends with her when i lover her it hurt so much so much hurts inside it does hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts i hate her so much i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her but i loved her its my fault whyh did she i don't want to hurt anymore its all of my fault i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me so much hate hate hate hate hate hate its so stupid juvenile everyone feels the same way eventually so why am i so hurting hurts inside i feel sick in my stomach sick sick sick sick sick its all her fault her fault no mine why why why why why why why why why i wish i could hold her again shes so nice and i love her but shes shallow and she hurt me it still hurts will it stop hurting when time heals all wounds but she'll never love me again i hate that i hate that hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hurting hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt kill her hit her make me feel better take away the pain hurting hate hate hate hate hate"



I was kinda surprised to I read all of this over again. You see about 3 weeks ago my girlfriend broke up with me over MSN Messenger.. saying that she thought we would be better as friends. I haven't talked to her since then (heh, some friend ) and I was a little depressed (ok, alot) but I didn't think it was this much.

What does it mean? Is it normal?



[This message has been edited by Shadow88 (edited 10-09-2003).]

yes its just a juvinile thing for a juvinile relationship

you'll get over it, less you want me to sputter more words of wisdom...

It's fucking great when broads pull that "Let's just be friends" shit ain't it man?!

I broke up with a girl last January and I've only seen/spoken to her 3 times...As you said "Some friend! "

Just deal with it man, it's all you can do...Being bitter and hating her will only hurt you and make you feel bad.

Just move on and find another girl...That'll more than lilely piss her off!

The girl I broke up with last January saw me with another girl about 2 months ago and she fucking hated it...Hehehehehe...I love it!!!

[This message has been edited by psycho_8b (edited 10-09-2003).]