Irony , yeah....sure....
just say co-winki-dink

That is an ok splanation
For myself I'd have to say
that as I am consciously falling
into a very deep, sometimes used
to be ,long overdue sleep...
I become aware of an extremely disturbing
sensation, this occurs just before
complete paralysis sets in and if I am very
lucky I can get the attention of some one laying next to me,and manage to let them
know what is going on.
During the onset and duration of this
all I can think in terror and desperation
is "if only I could open my eyes, hell move my eyes, if only I could take a breath to scream and I try but the person next to me
hears nothing because not even the tiniest
sound can be coaxed from me , just the panic
and terryfying fear that grips my soul!
I am very aware of utter disconnectedness
from my body, somehow I know that if I fail
to conjure up the requisite imperceivable twitch, that I don't get to get back in.
It is terryfying to say the least!
Last time it happened and anytime for that matter, the only escape possible if I struggle with every ounce of focused determination and adrenaline I may be able to muster, all just to move my finger or toe a 32nth of an inch , Death feels
that close and it is sooo very possible that I'll not be able to do it(move that whatever)
It is for the reason " I hope that never happens again"
that I avoid coffee completely.
I have found that it acts as an excellent catalyst to aid and abet all the wrong
participants I emody.
For years I thought this was a fairly
unique hell, one of the first thing I
looked up when I got my computer was
this topic, I posted a "ever heard of this?' on some discussion board and them lost
it forever.
Eventually I got dicouraged and quit trying to find it, instead, I found the free porn
stories that used to be here but now .....
and then I found y'all ,I want a bumper sticker that says &totseI FOUND IT!
coffee is evil, repent, jk, not really