Night, oh how it burdens me.
Darkness has always been a friend,
But now it is often a tragedy.
While I lay resting,
Waiting for sleep to come and take me into my mind,
Something else comes first.
When I open my head up for rest,
I open it up like a window,
But instead of a lover coming through this portal,
A dreadful criminal enters.
This perpetrator silently kills all I have.
My happiness, my hopes, my sanity.
All are slaughtered while I lay in my own company.
Everyday I see this thing in my mirror,
This dark, evil creature.
At night it is a silent wail,
A melancholy, sickening tone,
Always sung as silent as a grave.
I chase it away, yet it always comes back.
Like a vampire feeding off my insecurities.
It makes me worry about my past and future.
During daytime it is swiftly dealt with.
The distractions kill it.
But when I am at peace,
It takes the opportunity.
Every night I pray for rest,
Yet every night I am still met by this stranger.
Maybe it is my sanity.
The truth, striking me cold and hard where it hurts the most.
When my ignorance is too tired to argue,
Perhaps the wiser man in the mirror steps in.
No, this cannot be.
Worrying, Pessimism, Guilt, Fear.
These things are not truth,
During the day, I am who I want to be.
I live my dreams every day, just pretending.
Every night, I become what I fear most,
I hide in myself but only crawl deeper into the horror.
Perhaps the real man the mirror is the one in my dreams.
Because in my mind, not in my emotions, not in the world,
Is where I can truly see myself for what I have become.

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my longest piece yet. im kind of proud of it. its written purely out of my experiences and thoughts. comment/criticisms are encouraged/welcomed (:

Wow dude, you should be proud. I can relate to every line of this, and it's rare for me to say that about writing around here, or anywhere for that matter. It's so real, and it really has a depressing tone without being emo at all. This is seriously great. My favorite work of yours, and of this history of this forum.

Great job man, keep it up.

thanks man. i try to write things in a way that people can relate to. and what do you mean "favorite work" of mine? someone actually pays attention to what i write? i feel special now ;)

thanks man. i try to write things in a way that people can relate to. and what do you mean "favorite work" of mine? someone actually pays attention to what i write? i feel special now ;)

Yeah, I've noticed your influx of posts around here, and I think you can really convey emotions well. You've got a fan, dude. I look forward to seeing more of your work.

Yeah, I've noticed your influx of posts around here, and I think you can really convey emotions well. You've got a fan, dude. I look forward to seeing more of your work.

alrighty, thanks. ill try to compensate :D i usually wait for inspiraton before i write though, so i never know wen ill have another piece ready

alrighty, thanks. ill try to compensate :D i usually wait for inspiraton before i write though, so i never know wen ill have another piece ready

Good luck topping this one dude, it's great. :)

Kinda has a pedophile overtone to it.
A documentation of a victims experience and thoughts.
Extremely readable, well done Anarchist.;)

thanks. you, moonius, and the dude that posted in this thrread first are all mi favorite people on this website lol

thanks. you, moonius, and the dude that posted in this thrread first are all mi favorite people on this website lolEven though its the 2nd here happy new yo! dude
I haven't seen Moonius post in here for a while? he must be partying still. :)

Even though its the 2nd here happy new yo! dude
I haven't seen Moonius post in here for a while? he must be partying still. :)

happy new year too :p